Free

I am stuck i am stuck
I am stuck
I am stuck
In my head
In these rules I make up
I am stuck in my age
Inevitably sliding into decay
I am stuck
I am stuck
I am stuck
Between two weird neighbours
I am stuck
In my habits
In my house
I am stuck
In isolation
In comfort
I am stuck
Can’t break free
To save my life
I am stuck
I am stuck
I am stuck
In limited creativity
In stupid ways
I am stuck
I am stuck
Stuck in how i am alone
Stuck in the lack of sex
I am stuck
I am stuck
In my body
In this money prison cell
I am stuck
Killing myself
I am stuck
In disorder
In the fear
I am stuck
I am stuck
In panic
In panic
In panic
I am stuck
In this forever moment
Boring
And dull
I am stuck
I am stuck
Forever wanting more
I am stuck
I am stuck
In looking back
So sickin’ fuck
I am stuck
I am stuck
Can’t break free
I am stuck
I am stuck
I am stuck
Trapped in memory
I am stuck
Good and bad
Not moving
In honey
In resin
In concrete
In stagnation
In quicksand
I am stuck
In you
In me
In imagined
Things
That keep me
Stuck
I am stuck
I am stuck
I am stuck
I am fucking stuck
I am goddamned stuck
Nothing works
Nothing changes
I only get more stuck
In mediocrity
In desperate twitches
In increments
I am stuck
I am stuck
I am stuck
I’m not sure how it happened
Something to do with safety and comfort
I am stuck
With fear and caution
I am stuck
I am stuck
Haven’t used my voice
Haven’t used my body
Haven’t for years
Avoid touch
Except for lust
Scratching an itch
Avoid thought
Except for tasks
That keep me stuck
Avoid feelings
Fear of sinking deeper
And getting stuck
I am stuck
I am stuck
I am stuck
I am stuck
I am stuck
I am stuck
I am stuck
I am stuck
Stuck in nostalgia
In melancholy
In times half remembered
And never lived
I am stuck
In the first feelings
Emotional quakes
I am stuck
In experiences
In past decades
I am stuck
Scared out of my mind
I am stuck
Facing the darkness
The soft emptiness
I am stuck

(2023-02-17)